I didn’t test at all this last cycle. I had no expectation that it would work; it felt like we were going through the motions, some kind of very expensive and unpleasant kabuki so that we could look back and say that at least we tried. There wasn’t much satisfaction in being right — CD1 was as depressing as ever, CD3 was as uncomfortable as ever, what with the wanding and all, and here I am a week later in a hospital waiting room for another HSG.
Whenever my RE looks at me via ultrasound he says things to his medical students like “scarring” and “pelvic adhesions.” He says “unusual shape” and “difficult positioning.” But in the consult room he says “no reason to think the worst” and “should be clear.” But over the past few months it’s become clear that he thinks there is something going on in my uterus as a result of my myomectomy. He has brought this up in the past but his recommendation has been to just go ahead and do the IUI, but this time he recommended “getting a look at things” before we go any further. I was planning to ask for this anyway since I am not actually deaf in the exam room and I can hear what says to the med students, so it was nice that we were on the same page.
So here I sit, waiting to find out if there’s yet more wrong with me. For the privilege I will be paying a cool $1500 out of pocket unless the insurance company decides to pony up.*
* Not bloody likely.